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LGD.Yao schrieb:

“If lights and fireworks shine together, it would still not outshine my dream. My trip's opening, my badges along the road, hope that's blown thin by wind and sand, time lets the face shine brightly." These were the lyrics of Super Boy 2007's theme song.[T/N: Kinda like Chinese American Idol for guys] It was also during this time that I found Dota, and later quit university to come out and play professionally. In a blink of an eye I find myself here today, 8 years later. A few days ago I coincidentally heard this song again, and suddenly I felt my scalp tingling. There were many many things - every scream, every tear, every hug and one at a time human shadows appeared in front of my eyes like a projection. I guess my youth was created and pieced together by these things.
At this year's TI there were some people who had a star badge next to their ID, which meant they had participated in all 5 TIs. I still remember TI1 in Cologne. One day after dinner xiao8 and I took the light rail back to the hotel. It was supposed to be a 5 minute ride but the train kept going without stopping for half an hour, going faster and faster, and in the end brought us to a completely different city, and close to a completely different country. That year's competition went by like that - hazily and panicky. TI2 was magnificent, we had a 19 win-streak, but yet fell on the last day. As we parted the stage we bowed to the audience. At the moment I couldn't stop my tears. I won't ever forget the regret and unwillingness to accept defeat that I felt in that moment. At TI3 we went in full of confidence, yet we fell hard onto the floor. We were shut out of top 8, and were not mentally prepared to lose that terribly. During TI4 the audience didn't believe in us, but even today I can still retrieve power from the surprise and emotion we felt when we went against that current and made it to Key Arena in the end. At TI5 I played alongside my best brothers. We successfully got first in our group, and we fought to the last day of the main event. Perhaps it was fate - the dove that spun above our heads on the road to the arena everyday suddenly went the other direction and flew away on the last day. On that day, we lost.
After we lost, the boundless exhaustion suddenly spread throughout my body. In Seattle I was already debating if I should retire and rest for some time. Playing professionally, training all night, studying replays, flying to different countries and dealing with jetlag, these have all become ordinary daily things, but keeping this up for all these years has pushed my body and my mental state to its limit. At this year's TI I basically suffered insomnia night after night. During the day I finished my games gritting my teeth, screaming. I realized I really did need to relax and get some rest.
I still remember after being eliminated I was outside Key Arena smoking a cigarette, Nic[T/N: 超人蛙, the LGD manager] was next to me trying to comfort me. When he said that the dreams during youth are usually not perfect, at that moment my cigarette fell out of my hand. I think it's because I am reluctant to leave. I don't know if there is anything that is more worth me using my entire youth striving for. I know there are a lot of people who want to see me continue to play, and I understand right now is the best time in esports. I'm not discouraged and I have not given up. It's just that I've gone too far too fast, sometimes you have to slow down your pace to organize your short-comings, understand how you'll run the road ahead of you, and rest your body to prepare for your next sprint. A few days ago Ruru told me not to rest for too long, my dream has still not been achieved. Perhaps it is fated that the dreams during youth are left with a little bit of regret. I think my youth is close to its end too. In the future I hope there is a day I become more mature and come back, since this is the dream I want to chase for a lifetime!
Someone had a statistic that said LGD had participated in more than 800 Dota2 matches, and I wasn't absent for a single one. The teammates around me changed again and again, and still, today it is time for me to say goodbye. LGD to me is truly like a family, there is definitely a lot of reluctance, and in the future I will stay in this big family as a sub.
Thank you everyone for your wishes, and I wish the best for everyone. For the happiness in our hearts, we won't compromise until old age. Let's encourage each other.