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I’ve never told this to anyone. I’ve just tried to move past. But lately it seems that my insecurities have got the best of me. And I’m no longer in control. No one should ever have to feel like this. To feel like me. Even though the good I have outweighs the bad, the bad is what’s leaving me with sleepless nights. I spend most of my time arguing with my own reflection. For no apparent reason. And it may seem as if I have all the answers, but I’m just as lost as you. I’ve spend the past few years trying to overcome my own misery, but these sort of things take time, and I’m running out of mine. So I will pray to a God that isn’t there, to a world that doesn’t hear, to anyone who will listen, to keep me from becoming everything I promised myself that I would never be. I do not deserve this.

I’m looking back on those I once looked up to, and I can’t help but feel that I’m looking down. Everyone I’ve ever admired has left me with nothing. Not even a memory. I remember growing up, and yearning to be just like you. It pains me to admit that I held you in such a high regard, as if my life would mean nothing without your approval. But now I see the error of my ways. All that time spent searching for myself in someone else. I think it’s safe to say that I’ve become everything I wanted to be. And no one can take that from me. All of my heroes have failed me, but I won’t ever fail myself. I can’t believe how naive I used to be when I never really needed anyone. All of my heroes have failed me, but I won’t ever fail myself.

No matter what you say to me
No matter what you want me to be
I wont change what I think
No words of yours can make me sink